We all have a testimony and experiencing physical abuse from my step-father at a young age for the longest I always wanted to give him a beat down when I got older. Then not to my plan, but always in God’s plan. Jesus found me and the hate, anger I had built up for years became manageable as Jesus started the healing process me.
Going through any kind of abuse is tough. Whether it’s sexual, physical, or mental abuse it’s hard to experience real freedom afterward; if we are honest, even after being saved it’s hard to heal and forgive.
It was nice to be able to sit down with and just talk. This interview is so powerful and our hopes are it blesses the individual or individuals who read this and for them to be able to experience real freedom with God. Thanks for your time Srrvant and thank you for your transparency.
It was tough, to be honest, my mom and dad got divorced when I was 3 and my biological father was in and out of jail my whole childhood. I was sexually abused by a babysitter when I was only 7 and that was what prompted us to move out to New England. My grandparents and pastor really stepped in and helped me grow.
I want to expound on your sexual abuse and your dad being in and out of jail. Was there ever a time including now that you think God turned His back on you because of that?
Yeah man, it was tough. My dad has been sober for 15 years now but he still doesn’t have his license and because he can’t drive he missed my wedding. I also feel like more of a parent to him sometimes. I constantly have to make sure he’s paying his bills and staying off alcohol and drugs.
As far as the sexual abuse it really made me insecure throughout my whole life. I always felt violated. I’ve often struggled with wanting to track that guy down and giving him a beatdown and I’m still not sure if I’ve forgiven him or not. That’s probably something I’ll wrestle with my whole life.
Have you ever questioned God?
I’ve questioned God at length about both things but it really made me turn more towards Him than away.
How did you come to Christ, (your salvation story)?
The faithful prayers of my mom, pastor and grandparents paid off. I did the whole sinner’s prayer thing several times as a teen but never internalized the meaning of my faith. As a teen, I was constantly fighting one period and then preaching the gospel the next.
It took my pastor to show me the inconsistencies in my life and he started giving me homework after his sermons and putting me in leadership positions at youth group. This is what really led me to realize that I needed to change.
What was your first introduction to music?
I always grew up listening to music. My mom and dad loved rock and would blare that. My uncle was the one who showed me the ways into hip-hop. He was big into Pharcyde and the 80s scene and then showed me Outkast and I discovered Eminem after that.
How did u get into Chh?
My parents hated that I was listening to Eminem and actually through the Eminem Show onto the highway! My mom then showed me KJ-52 as an alternative which I thought was pretty cool, but man when I heard Holy Culture by the Cross Movement I was hooked!
How do you feel about Chh as a whole?
I think we need to stop being cannibals. Rep Christ and spit hard and stop worrying so much about the guys next to you.
What are the positives?
Artistically, It has definitely grown! Engineers and producers are a lot more legit and we have some REALLY talented folks involved now.
What are some of the negatives?
Everybody seems so fractured right now and it’s kinda sad. Just so much inward division
When did you know you were called to change lives for God in your music?
Well as a teen I would battle in high school and write rap songs for girls and then when I heard Ambassador on Cry No More I realized that I could be using this for so much more!
Tell us about the new album/EP?
Well I’m thinking about doing a Quality Control Pt.2 and then begin working on a full project called No Service (this interview is the first time that has been in writing)
Tell us about the single?
The newest single was Victory Dance featuring Parris Chariz and man was that a blast! We both have such unique styles so it was cool working with each other and hearing his passion for God as well.
What do you hope people will get out of your music and upcoming projects?
I just want to make Tunnel music. That at the end of the day people will hear me and realize that there is a light in the midst of all this mediocrity and turn to Christ who can give the only real purpose.
Who are u listening to that we should be listening too?
I love Caleb Mccoy new project and WHATUPRG kills it on his Raul project
Who influenced you the most in music and in life?
I have so many artists that I listen to but in life now my biggest influence is my grandfather. He works so hard and exemplifies Christ through it all.
Who would you like to work within the future?
I would love to do a song with Hee Sun Lee one day! She is so dope!
How much have you grown on this project, talent wise?
Well, my wife tells me I’ve grown in leaps and bounds so I guess that’s good. For me personally, I think I’ve focused more on my rhyme patterns than before and finding new cadences to try.
How much have you grown on this project, Spiritually?
Well, the project has not yet begun but to prepare myself, I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to serve and focusing on that.
What does worship mean to you?
To me, worship is displayed within Scripture. God tells us how He wants to be worshipped and we need to be aware of it and act accordingly.
One of the biggest topics in the music business now is streaming, how does that affect you as an artist?
It’s much harder to make money. It basically forces an artist to tour and sell merch which isn’t necessarily bad but it makes it different.
How hard is it to separate Ministry from business and both from family time?
It is so difficult. Thankfully my wife is understanding when I have to step away for a call, but we do have a no phones at dinner rule.
Politics play a big role in our society as well as our hip-hop community. How do you deal with the negatives and positives of politics?
I feel that as long as you are true to yourself and build an organic, faithful audience that politics is irrelevant. The gatekeepers have no control if you make your own thing and force them to pay attention and that kind of offsets any mystic politics that could have happened.
What is your best advice for this generation?
Love God and love people.
Will you stay an independent artist or would you like to sign with a label?
If the distribution, booking, and profit splits look ok then I wouldn’t mind joining a label.